When the medicines don't work, a little love does. When the chocolate cant cheer you up, a warm hug does. Dad's teasing ruffle of your hair, matter more than that crocodile print Gucci. Walking barefoot on grass, with the tender stalks shyly curling up your toes feels indescribably pleasant. One new notification on facebook. Couriers. Coffee steaming up your glasses.

Its always the small things in life that matter and count :)

Wednesday, 18 January 2012

A child of time.


Felt hurt? Broken. Misunderstood? Lost. Clueless. Lifeless. Listeless. Vicious?

Ever felt that if you were asked to answer one more question you will just silently lift yourself and walk out of the door?


Ever wanted to make faces and laugh right out at their faces because the pain is so deep and so profound that if you did not do something, your head might explode?

Ever wanted to slit your hands and ram your head till the veins rupture and leave stains of purple on your tiny forehead because..otherwise, people do not take you seriously? Maybe then, maybe then they would. You know? Stop preaching. Stop advising. Stop looking at you with eyes that silently say " Isn't she a child, how immature d are her wants! ". You hate those eyes. They make u feel so insignificant. 

Ever felt like doing something so evil, so demonic because then at least the ones who think good about you will stop doing so? And you can peacefully go back to hating yourself looking at those who now hate you, with eyes that are soft with love for them? It is all right. It is ok. Why should they suffer because of your inadequacies? 

I am neither black, nor am I white. I stand at the border of both and only instances tell me which way to bend or sway. 

I am not a child of earth. I am a child of time. 

Posted by at 11:06

3 comments:

  1. Nirati 18 January 2012 at 21:32

    yes yes yes!!
    This post, I started nodding from the first line.
    There are soooo many times I've felt like this.
    You described it beautifully.
    "Ever wanted to make faces and laugh right out at their faces because the pain is so deep and so profound that if you did not do something, your head might explode?" YES!

    xo

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  2. Ayushi18 January 2012 at 23:23

    I've never wanted to do any of those but I sure know people who have.
    How do you gauge everything so perfectly Megh ?

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  3. Meghna C19 January 2012 at 07:52

    Blabaholic: I think we are sister's when it comes to mood swings .

    Seredipity: You are one very strong woman. Its good you feel nothing of this. Its quite a pain. Love.

    XOXO

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